The New Me

Just yesterday, i was trying to look at my face in the mirror (which by the way, i always do!) i noticed that the patches in my head were already gone. I looked at my back using another mirror to focus on my patches at the back and I was surprised that it was already gone! REALLY!

fast rewind: I had alopecia areata few months back (extreme falling hair that would actually leave patches at my scalp) The culprit: stress due to the nursing board exam last November The victim: me! of course! hehehe.

anyway, going back. I was stroking my very very short hair and at the same time locating where are the patches in my head and suddenly I shouted at my sister " pat, tan-awa ba gud ning akong hair, ni tubo na xa! yipeee (translation for my friends located all over the world: pat, look at my hair it's starting to grow)"

It actually made my day!

the back of my head now. Look closely and you wont find any patches anymore.

this was the picture taken last February this year. I often get a lot of stares from people this actually made me very conscious. And in my blog previous blog. People always ask me what happened to my hair, and i always have a scripted answer. smile.

yes it was tough, really tough. i had a lot of adjustments when i had my hair bald. It was tough since i have to use a cap whenever i go out (downtown area) just to hide from the stares of the people, not to mention that while riding my motor bike i sometimes get stares from passengers sitting at the pedicap (the three-wheeled passenger vehicle here in dumaguete) whenever I overtake them and at that time I am not wearing a cap. hahayz!

after scalp injections, oral medications, bottles of PREGROW shampoo and conditioner, triamcinolone solution inflammatory medication and minoxidil hair regrower, i have finally come to a conclusion that i am healed. YEHEY!

One of the things i really miss most was when I sit in front near the altar whenever go to church on Sundays and I don't get to do this since i have to wear a cap when i go to church and i have to stand near the door just enough to hear the priest at the speaker near the church entrance. So Saaad.

But last Sunday was different, i get to sit in the church pews after 7 long months of being bald and being conscious about it in the public.. I didn't wear a cap this time when i went to the church and i was really proud I have hairs on my head. Thank You Lord. :-)

After church, i was ready to have my first haircut in months, this time, it was not shaving but trimming only just to get rid of unwanted extra length of hairs at the side of face. and it went perfect.

my first haircut.. sweet! hehehe. i love the trim afterwards.

I just felt alive this time around, that after that painful decision of shaving of my hair, now, its back. I am just pleased that my hair is back. I know that i have to take care of my self this time, like less stress and i have stop being vain with all the hair colors, hot oils and hair relax. I have learned to love my self more. Some people would usually ask me:

friend: "Jay, did you lose your self-esteem when you lost your hair?"

Jay: " actually no. i was pretty much confident about myself and i am very proud of myself because i fairly accomplished a number of things already in my lifetime, the only problem is that, i get uncomfortable whenever people give me a hard stare (like straight 5 minutes of staring), i would really melt. :-)

friend: " so from now on, your self-esteem is multiplied to 5 times more"

Jay: "actually yes (laughter) i am extremely loving my self now and I know now that my imperfections made more human and whenever i look back in my life, i could actually laugh at this situation and learn from it, and that there is more to life than having no hair. Cheers!

The Happy Me!